I am the tapioca pudding of people

I’m so sleep deprived, by the time I get around to writing this thing I’m like legally asleep.
Maybe I’ll start earlier starting tomorrow so I can string together some semi coherent thoughts yknow
My first day at work is tomorrow, bright and early!!
Yaaay less sleep
Selling sanity for money
I think I’ll save it all up and buy everyone Christmas presents this year. Mwhehe

The Day I Found a Vibrator on the Stairs

Currently procrastinating.
We’re keeping a dream log for psych class, and what i wrote in my half asleep state for last night was:
Big storm. Jeff picked you up and drove around, very angry about cup of coffee.

So that’s interesting.

I got to dance a lot today, too, which is nice because dancing is becoming my favorite thing to do. My butt is super duper sore from all the dancing, though, so like if I want to sit I have to plop down haha.

Anyway, not much going on here, just mega busy and eternally late on deadlines and chronically dehydrated and sleep deprived.
When I’m really busy like this, time flies by so quickly.

The weird thing about keeping tab of my dreams is like..
You know how when you have a nightmare and the feeling of the nightmare colors your whole day?
That’s because you remember your dream because it was so horrific.
But when I’m just remembering the mundane dreams, the feelings in those dreams are also sticking with me for the day. Just a weird thing I’ve noticed.

I would say sorry for the boring post, but I can’t so I won’t!
Thank you for reading.

Goodnight, Sleepy

I am very tired and very overwhelmed
But my bed is so soft
And my blankets so warm
That it’s hard to care about the things I should
So I’m going to sleep
And forget the world awhile
Before I wake up to early
To be with people too happy
Even though they’re dying everyday
But my bed is so soft
And my blankets so warm
I don’t care about the things I should

Wow, I can get sentimental too

My friends did something really nice for me today.
Amanda surprised me with a ballon tied to a pumpkin spice latte
Will bought us all burritos
And Gemma made cupcakes
They said we had to celebrate my birthday now since my birthday is in august so we’re never together

Aw jeez

Who does that

Also today I got to dance like all day

Dance class was a blocked schedule of dance and my teacher said something clicked with me and my quality of movement changed and it’s like I dance like a different person now

And then twilight zone rehearsal was all weird ass funky dancing that we’re gonna open the show with it was so funnnn

Yay dancing and yay friends being nice to me I’m so lucky

I don’t have a fear of commitment. I have a fear of abandonment. We all screw things up. I screw things up, especially with people I love. I get needy, I get moody, I get distant, I want to be close, I get confused. I don’t understand all of it, but I keep pushing because I hope this thing, this universe, there’s no way that I’m the only person out there who wants something this bad, if I want it, someone else out there must too.